I miss the moments that I did not experience

I often think about who my daddy would have been. I was 15 years old when he passed, and he was only 45 years old. I wonder how he would have grown as an adult. But I will never get that opportunity to see him change and grow.

I wonder what my mom's life would have been. Before she passed, she was finally at a place where she wasn't struggling with depression and fighting to live. She was living and was experiencing something that she had not experienced before. So I wonder how she would have grown in that aspect.

I'll never be able to give them grandkids or see them in the crowd when I get married. I miss the relationship that I never got to experience with either of my parents.

This is a different type of grief because I am grieving something that I have never experienced.

I wanted to have them at my house on Sundays to eat and drink. I wish that I could have experience car shopping with my parents. How do I become a parent now without their guidance? Just like me, my kids will not have grandparents.

I miss the relationships that I never have and never will experience with my parents.

Honestly, I never learned or heard about their wedding day. I have no idea what they remember about their parents and how they were affected by it. I wonder if they had dreams for their kids.

The fact that both of my parents passed at such a young age is scary. I try to be happy and cheerful, but sometimes the only option is to look at pictures and imagine what my life would be like.

Grief reminds us of our pain and the memories of the people we have lost. Grief has shown me that my parents still had a lot of growing to do. I miss my parents, and I miss the opportunities I will never experience with them.

I am not sure what you're experiencing right now, but I will say this. You're not alone. No matter what you're experiencing.

As always, beautiful people love you the way you love the world.

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