Love you the way you love the world. This is the phrase I kept saying out loud. When I wasn't working, and I had quit my job and moved across the country. I needed to rest. What was the rest? How was I to get that? What would that look like?
Grief had me by the throat. I lost myself completely. I was tired. So many people had hurt me. I beat myself up regularly. I treated myself as if I was the one that causes all that pain and strife around me.
I did not hurt them.
Lisa, you did not hurt them.
You do not have to carry that pain around.
You are not the reason for pain. They hurt you. I always thought I had to be optimistic and forgiving because that is what my faith taught me. That is what the church was telling me. But the faith was not acknowledging that I was human. I needed to know that I was human, and what I was feeling was normal.
I was tired.
I had no motivation.
No desire for life.
What was my purpose?
When I decided that I would be doing something different, and people did not know how to handle me out of the box. But it wasn't about them. It was about me. I needed healing. I needed love. I needed me in my life. And that was it. I was the answer. I was the solution.
I could be my Wonder Woman. I had spent most of my life putting everyone and everything before me. I did not have to put myself on the back burner. I could love me the way I love the world.
As I sat in a spiritual healing session, I did an activity of me punching a pillow, and I remembered my "Why" of HealingSheGotFaith and why my catchphrase was "Love you the way you love the world." And that reason is that I did not want the next generation to grow up like my generation, where we are 30, 40, and 50 and still trying to heal from situations when we were 16, 18, 20, 22, and so on. I want them to learn from me and learn to embrace themselves with every ounce in them. I want them to be in their craft and serve people, all while loving them. They are worthy of the love that they put into every situation, as am I.
And this is my daily reminder.
It is 2021.
I am giving myself to walk in my purpose.
I am giving myself to be me and love me.
I am new and improved.
I give myself to speak to me.
I give myself permission to ask and receive the presence that I need within my life.
I give myself to receive love. I permit myself to know that I am worthy of a life of financial freedom.
I permit myself to know my worth and know that I am worthy of a healthy lifestyle.
As a wise friend told me, life can hurt. Situations can be sticky. There will not always be room for forgiveness and love for that particular moment because I am hurt. I permit myself to feel that and know that.
As I sit here today and breathe in and embrace my purpose; I challenge you to do the same thing. I want you to love you the way you love the world. I want you to know that you are worthy. If you need permission, then this is it. I am permitting you. I want you to know that you are worthy.
I say it all the time, but today I mean it, and I am begging you, please love you the way you love the world.
I love you.
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